Sunday, December 19
i was lying on my bed. my eyes are tired yet my mind is active.
it's thinking on recent events...
bits and pieces fall into the memory lane. suddenly de va ju came in.
i cut my wrist. i spent my christmas in NUH.
is that wats going to happen...?
i hope it's not. but well, it's going to be a sad christmas. it had already been a not-so-good birthday anyway...
i really can't cope this mind games thing any longer. at any minute i might just blow off my top and get this whole game to a G-a-M-e-O-v-E-r.
argh. i'm thinking too much things. gonna get real insane soon... =(
i already made myself to such a state... y am i so stupid?
i tried to immerse myself into lecture notes, games, vcd, tv the whole day... yet my concentration is still not there. it seems to be drifting to a faraway land.
i never had such a confusing feeling... it's so scary. i'm going to go mad sooner or later.
see you at NUH. bye. i go unlock my window now.
